A day in the life of a tantric shaman

I wake up from a night of intermittent sleep, happy that it’s time to get up and start my day. While I am still half awake, I dive into my dreams to see if there is something important there, but the dreamscape is silent. For the last few nights I’ve been working a lot on my dreams, getting unconditional love downloads, so I guess it’s okay to have a dreamless night! Still, I feel a bit disappointed that I have nothing to think about.

Some mornings I immerse myself in meditation in my cozy bed, but this morning I remember that my guides have been telling me to meditate outdoors, to be more in touch with nature. I go out to the pomegranate, settle on the yoga mat with my blanket, and drop down. It feels good to hear the birdsong, and I hear the hummingbirds chasing each other and sipping their morning nectar for a moment before starting my hour of solo practice.

I start with the breath of fire, awakening and fueling my inner fire with short sharp breaths. As I practice, I wake up and begin to feel the life force flowing into my body, opening the same channels through which sexual energy flows. I start to feel warm and I take off the blanket. As I continue to breathe, a smile begins to appear on my face and happiness fills my stomach. Ahhhhh. I feel a deep inner stillness in the center of my belly, surrounded by a soft warm flame. I feel good.

After the breath of fire, I work with my chakras, inhaling in each of them and eliminating them. AHHH, this feels good too, like taking my morning shower. my physical and emotional body begins to feel clear, clean, and open. I give thanks then, thanks for everything that the day before gave me joy. And I spend a few more minutes sitting in silence, listening to what the Spirit wants to tell me today. I also review what I need to know for my clients today. What will they need? Usually, I try a little on my body one thing they need the most, a guide for their healing session.

Now is the time for the day to unfold. I dress, shower and head to the temple. Once there, I prepare the space. This is one of my favorite parts of the day, beautifying the space, burning incense and sage, lighting candles, playing soft music. I’m ready to start.

My first client comes in and we work on some challenges that are developing in their relationships. She wants to learn to focus more on herself, find her power as a woman, and connect with her own sexual self. I spend an hour listening deeply to her, channeling information from my guides, and teaching her the practice. Today we work with movement, because she is ready to let go! We dance and breathe and learn to deep clean each chakra center with breath and movement. She allows herself to move her body and lets out deep sounds of anger that she didn’t even know were stored inside her. Afterward, you feel energized and relieved. I send her home with some music to use in her daily practice.

Now is the time to take care of business, and I take my time as I answer emails, take phone calls, edit the website, and many other mundane tasks. It helps me balance the passage of this time, and instead of feeling resentful about it, I am grateful for the variety of my day.

I take a nice long lunch break to take care of my body, because for me a big part of tantra practice is taking care of myself. Today I go to yoga classes and eat nutritious food to replenish myself during the afternoon and evening.

Now the day changes and becomes more intense. Today I have a red session: deep and powerful practical work. I will use my sexual / life force energy (and my client’s) to open up, to heal old shame and guilt, to allow more freedom and ecstasy in sexual connection This work often follows my clients after a study intensive breathing. and meditation and movement practice.

It took me an hour to prepare the room, lighting candles and incense. I put sheets on the bed and call on my animal guide allies to hold the space. When I call Black Jaguar, I hear and feel a loud purr, and I know it will be a delicious and powerful session, that there will be deep pleasure and openness.

Once my client arrives, we spend 3 hours experimenting with the tantric touch. I begin by listening to him share how the work has been integrated since our last session, a lingam massage. He is excited to learn how to move sexual energy through his entire body and begin having full-body orgasms in his self-pleasure practice. Anchored in himself, today he is eager to learn more about how to share this broader sexual / heart / spiritual energy with a woman.

We begin with meditation, imagining ourselves as trees, rooted in the Earth and branching out in the stars and the sun. Once we feel strong and loved by the Divine, we begin to intentionally connect, make our roots flow, and entwine our branches like trees do in the forest. We see vines growing from our hearts, connecting and intertwining us with a love that begins to flow from one side to the other. As we undress, we flow into touch and breath and how to work together, stay present, and bring diversity to the ways we connect and touch. I show him how to create security with the touch of the Earth and I let myself be carried away by the feeling that it gives me. Feel the joy that a woman receives you fully as a man.

We move towards the water, the total loving touch, then the fire, the deep sexual passion, and we go out into the air, tingling and vibrating with all this blissful energy. We keep experimenting as he finds his way to giving that is as happy as receiving. Time seems to dissolve as we both push the envelope of the barrier of bliss, looking for the place where we can allow ourselves to be greater and finding the obstacles that prevent us from receiving pleasure. We feel pleasure deeply in our bodies, and I still hear the voice of Spirit speaking softly and silently in me, helping me track their energy and needs in the moment, helping me to be their guide on this ecstatic and blissful journey.

My guide allows me to have room for him and to give him all the unconditional love of my heart. In the light of that unconditional love, you melt and your heart opens to a blazing fire, aligned with your body, your lingam, and your Spirit. He tells me that he feels like an eagle, flying over the earth and seeing his entire life and all his relationships in perspective for the first time.

We come back down to earth at the end with berries, chocolate, cheese, and crackers, and we enjoy what feels like the glow of sex, even though we haven’t really made love. I feel how big my energy body feels and I look to see how much her face and eyes have changed since she entered. He tells me how profoundly the session has changed his perception and he promises to check it out in a week by phone to share how he is integrating into his life.

I say goodbye to my client and return to focus on personal care. I have learned that this job requires a lot of that! I take a shower to land, I go out to bless the space and the work. I go out and walk, like. I am thankful for the beauty and healing power of this work and I can see how connected I feel to the trees and birds in the park. Life is good and my heart is full of love and happiness.